偶然

当世界有了情感
无法无忧无虑
当心里充满了爱
我已无法自拔

为了爱
我学会了自制
为了将来
我认识了等待
也了解了
以稳为主以慢为基的道理

爱让人们的生活充满力量
让我们充满自信心
让生活发出光彩
让我们的世界充满了微笑的人群
也让我们的生活有所寄托

情却让人们的生活带有忧愁
让我们感受到离别的悲痛
让我们过于牵挂于对方
而伤害了自己
也让我们胡思乱想

我们信任对方
我们让对方了解我们每一刻的感受
有时侯
某些小事让我伤心
有些琐琐碎碎的事情叫我计较
已学会控制了自己的脾气
但还是控制不了心情
回头想想发生了的每一刻
其实并不是想象中的原因
有时后悔自己伤害了自己的心
有时为了小事而堕落
真的没胆量向妳倾诉
但埋葬在心里的感觉好难堪

爱情让人兴奋
也让人伤悲
让心情转换不定

过于关心成了压力
疏于敏感成了冷漠
当真需要寻找一个平衡点
一个阶段让双方满足

古人有言道
忍一时 风平浪静
退一步 海阔天空

平衡点
就只应该在双方后退一步后达成吧

但这一步
需要考验
需要努力
最重要
需要互相的

了解


问世间 情为何物 直叫人生死相许?

swinging

梦

某天，某人在美索不达米亚平原上拾起了一个刻有古老字迹的封锁瓶子。好奇心的驱使下，他把封锁抛弃，把瓶子撬开。

突然间，烟雾弥漫，迷迷蒙蒙中，他看到一座庞大无比的巨人；他听到了一个强而有磁性的声音。

“告诉我你的梦想，我将会实现它！”

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这并不是一个滑稽的童话故事，这并不是一个荒谬的民间传说。每个人都会有梦想，每个人都要有梦想，每个人都期待着他们梦想的实现。

但想起了这不滑稽不荒谬的民间童话，我有了各种又滑稽又荒谬的梦想。

我想要

与妳一同躺在屋顶上唱歌。

与妳一块到神山之颠看星星。

与妳一起乘坐飞毯绕世界。

与妳...

...

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但我对着巨人说道，

我只想要此刻的她，

在微笑

(Neej) eineg fo maerd ym

一颗星 亮晶晶 藏我心

风太温柔 叶子感觉不到它的温暖
风在呼哮 叶子荷负不起它的压力

但当叶子失去了消息 风它才感觉到寂寞

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感情
需要两个人的认同
也要两个人的付出
以及两个人的接受

不仅要顾虑到风的性情
也要照顾到叶子的需要

才会永久

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当风失去了叶子的消息
一切都会是太迟了


我会珍惜这颗星(心)

rats ed neeJ

Our first picture.

us

妳 . 我

经过妳的班级
偷偷斜眼看进
妳专心在聆听

妳写妳的笔记
我却发梦游记
仿佛变成妳手中的铅笔

我看着妳
心想着妳
觉得就象接近自己

我爱着妳
心疼着妳
感觉就象爱着自己

我想妳的难题
妳顾虑我心情
比爱人还亲密

妳是我的秘密
我躲在妳心里
多么希望我是妳的唯一

我看着妳
心想着妳
觉得就象接近自己

我爱着妳
心疼着妳
难道爱妳更甚于爱自己？

Neej rof yllaiceps

Yad Gnitnioppasid A

Ain't today the day I looking forward the most?

Have you ever had this experient that the day you most looking forward to, the one you felt excited for it, was actually turned out to be a day you would wish you never had before?

Even the most optimistic man would turns pessimist.

Looked forward to the day, even thought some of my friends can't make it to the school, I was thought that it would be great as well as I could concentrate on her company. Well, it wasn't my day really. Searching for her up and down left and right inside and outside of the school, from round table to reading corner, turns to the hall and then to block D, from block D went to block E incase she's in her sister's classroom? Come back down and back to the reading corner, I shan't continue this, to know my whole journey, you just have to repeatedly reading this passage for 3 times.

So sure that she wasn't in the school anymore, I went out of school, to the place she always waited for her van, then to every single restaurant nearby, the Kanna Curry House, the Ipoh Chicken Rice, and, I don't know.

Well, glad to get her sister's sms that she has already home. Well it was disappointing but it was nothing compare to what happened after 2 hours.

She went back to school, mayb I was wearing an invisible suit, she just said hi and bye to me, then walked around at the side of the hall. Was thinking, was I really invisible to her? Does she knows that I was there just to meet her? I couldn't stop myself from thinking too much, I myself giving her excuses to tell myself that, her mum was near, can't talk to me. Well after another 20 minutes I waited, wait, I was really waiting. Sitting there looking at the path she took around the hall, praying that she would turns to me and at lease say a word, I cant really control my emotion anymore. I called her and I made her day bad, with my harsh words and violent reaction.

Really disappointed, not just to her, to myself as well as I couldn't couldn't couldn't control myself well. My mind wasn't with me and what I want was the explanation, what I want was whether am I really invisible to her. I couldn't felt anything besides pain, besides disappointment and hurts.

Finally I understand what's my other friend's PM means, it says that, the more effort you put in, when you fall, the more pain you will feel. And guess what, I fell today, a hard one.

The worse thing is, I can't let my parents know that I am sad. They would be even sad-ier than me if they know my feeling. Cried in my car on the way back, and forced a smile on my face, telling them I had a great day celebrating teacher's day today.

Having already promised her that I wouldn't be hot tempered anymore, would control myself well, but when I am sad, I forgotten everything.

Really feel bad for her now.

Sorry for today.
But I was really, sad.

Well, and so the supposingly-happy day ended. The sad way.

Warning: High Definition Pictures.

When you first look at this picture, what do you think it is?

No, you didn't get it right. This is actually the close up look at the back of a single playing card, a card from the famous card company in the world, the USPCP(The US Playing Card Company).

Why do I talk about playing cards all of sudden? To all of you, maybe you don't know my 'hidden' hobby yet, and let me introduce my unique and probably biggest hobby of me:

Playing Cards Collection

Well a lot of you might wonder why do I like to collect cards? This lead to another 'hidden' character of me. Don't be shocked when you read this. I was a magician at before I start to collect cards about 7 years ago. Don't fall down from your chair, I was just an amature close-up magician. Being a magician was just my hobby, nothing related to my future job. I have attended the close-up magic course in the International Magic Academy located in SS2 seven or eight years ago, couldn't remember the date well.

Even though my magic impressed almost everyone, it doesn't seems to impress me, myself. However, there was something in the magic course did grab my attention. It was my first high quality playing card I obtained in the same magic course. No, there is nothing wrong with the card, it is a real playing card you could find it everywhere, not in Malaysia, but in the United State. No trick on the card, as I said, it is just a normal deck of card.

So how this deck of cards impressed me? It is just totally different from the playing cards you could easily obtained from shopping mall. It is made by the USPCP and is just so much smoother than all the other cards I have ever touched. When I first hold the cards in my hand, it fell off my hand immediately due to its smooth surface. Slowly I have got used to the smooth surface of the cards and I could well handling it like my own fingers during the card tricks.

Lets not talk about the card tricks but the cards. Since then, I did some research on the USPCP on the products they have and how they produced the smooth surface of the cards. From the information I found, the surface of the cards are coated with a layer of tiny air bubble. How does the air bubble manage to stay on the surface? This I am not sure. I think it has something very thin wrapped on it and stick to the surface of the cards.

The USPCP came out with different brands of playing card. Some of it which I have them in my collections are Bee, Aviator and Aladdin-the same brand as my first playing card obtained from the magic academic. And ofcourse, the best selling card in the world, The Bicycle Card, which is shown in the picture above, which I have collected almost 20 decks of different styles and sizes of it thoughtout these years.

Well, thinking about cards makes me feel like showing you what I have. However, currently I only manage to collect a pair of Aladdin Cards here in Singapore and the rest of my collectables are sleeping at home back in Malaysia. So let me show you how beautiful they are (and also how's my photographing skills =p ).

Have you ever seen a guarentee card before?

The US Playing Card Company

Ace of Spade, the most beautiful card of the deck

Read what it is written there

Read again? =p

my fanning skill remain, after so long

Close up view

Focus on the Ace please(not you, is the camera)

Finally it shows what I want

Haha, My single-hand-fan(ooi I didn't arrange it okay? I could fan this out in 1 second)

Still not enough of it?

Couldn't get myself off this. It's too nice =D

Look closer

When the Aces meet each other

He shows his class

And she shows her beauty

The story of Aces

Red vs Blue

Focus! Focus please camera!

A calendar card?

30th July, My birthday

It's over

The boxes

Made in USA

K for King =)

J for Jeen =D

p/s: Couldn't find R for Ru >.<
pp/s: What am I doing here at 4am? I have an exam tomorrow!
ppp/s: Please go and sleep, King.

Food for Thought

Nothing to do in my room, playing with the food I've just bought.

Wall of Berlin

Tear here if you can

Defence Tower, from the bottom

From the top

Castle of biscuits

Guess this is enough for me to survive 2 more weeks here. =D

Major

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?

You scored as Mathematics/Statistics

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Mathematics, Statistics, or related majors (e.g., Accounting, Actuarial Science, Astronomy, Computer Engineering, Computer Information Systems (CIS), Computer Science, Economics, Engineering, Finance, Management Information Systems (MIS), Operations Management, Physics, Risk Management).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests.

Mathematics/Statistics		100%
Physics/Engineering/Computer		100%
Education/Counseling		94%
Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health		75%
French/Spanish/OtherLanguage		69%
HR/BusinessManagement		69%
Accounting/Finance/Marketing		63%
English/Journalism/Comm		56%
Biology/Chemistry/Geology		56%
History/Anthropology/LiberalArts		50%
Visual&PerformingArts		50%
Psychology/Sociology		44%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy		38%
Religion/Theology		31%

Hmm

What else could you expect from me besides this?

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