我想偷偷对妳说我爱妳

因为我已偷偷爱上了妳

I found myself

Everyone said that, I am a kid, although I am 21 this year.
In the same time, I realised I am just a kid, too.
I love to play (who doesn't?), I love to disturb my friends.
And I love them treating me like a younger brother.

Till now, I am always a joker.
I love to see my friend's smiles.
I tell lame jokes, just to look at their reactions.
Well, I have done this for the entire 21 years of my life, is that the truth me?

Am I the one I always thought I am?

A talk with my dearest old friend, really old one, not having a proper chat to each other for 9 years, I found her contact, and she found the real me.

As she said, I am myself, when I am not in front of any friends. That is the quiet me, the mature me, and the serious myself.

Before she talked to me today, I was lost, for 2 decades. I can't find myself, I can't be the one I suppose to be, the quiet, mature and serious one.

Her words wake me up.

I am no longer the talkative, the childish, and the funny/weird/etc etc etc me.

I found myself.
Quiet, mature, and serious, would be the best describtion of me.

The real me.
I found it.

Melody 续曲

好旧已经不再如此回忆
日子慢慢就这样飘逝而去
当我再次回想那个从前
妳已渐渐失去

就在当年说再见的那一刻
我的心不再存有任何旋律音符
如今休止符都还未画上
却又怀念过去

没了妳 脑海里失去了无数旋律
离开了你 我的歌只有休止符的存在
没了你 我忘了如何用灵感编曲
爱过了妳 才知道徇情并不是传说

本已决定不再写歌
不再甘心跌如这个爱情悬崖
看了妳那个苹果似的脸孔
我又回到那个从前

Melody 旋律重新充满在我脑海
爱了妳 动人心弦的歌曲再次出现
Melody 我又忘了什么叫休止符
而如今 我又写了最动听的Melody

数字的哲学

你是否曾梦想,
如果你有了别人没有的能力,
如果你拥有超出人类极限的特权,
你会用它来做什么呢?

上了一课数字的哲学,
领悟了一刻由数字转变成人性的道理.
明白了什么是本性,
了解了为什么不能更上一层楼.



什么是本性呢?



你是否曾梦想,
如果你有了别人没有的能力,
如果你拥有超出人类极限的特权,
你会用它来做什么呢?

救济难民?
象一般超人一样, 救人于苦难之中?
还是要为所欲为?

问问自己,
你会做什么?
那, 就是你的本性.

本性只有在苦难绝望中,
还有在威权引诱下,
才会浮起来.

我曾幻想,
拥有超人的能力,
还有隐身的技能.
然而,
我有想过要为家庭为社会为国家为世界吗?
没有.

一心只想为自己,
满足自身的欲望.

这, 难道是我的本性吗?


人之初, 性本善?

对于一个热爱数字的我,
但本性却如此卑贱无耻,
可见我对数字的认识不深,
也难怪如此难于进步.


本性操纵着数学的思考吗?

好好反省吧!

Back To School

Long after my break, I am back to my dearest University again.

Strong sunshine on the 3 days of my schooling days found my studying mood back.

I am back at last.

Well this entry is just to share with you some pictures of my school.
It might convinced you, to look forward to study here. =)


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First, I will show the pictures from each faculty besides mine, engineering.
Well, school of music will show later seperately. =)

Art and Social Science

Business

Medicine (Wow! Nerds study here.)

Computing

Science

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Facilities now.
What I going to show you later is just 10% of the facilies of my school.

Central Library, the largest library among the 7 libraries we have.

Inside view of one corner of one floor of the library

University Cultural Centre, where performances held.
George W. Bush even gave a talk here earlier this year.

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Alright, now is engineer's turn.

All the pictures above are from the engineering faculty, my class is there. =)

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Last one, School of music. The most beautiful building in my school.

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Hmm. One 'future' building, will be built by 2010 I guess, Alumni House.

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She

I was back in CHS today morning, making a surprise attack to the teachers and my friends.

Well, it kinda surprise everyone who saw me. I should write about my trip today.


First of all, my first step into the school, I saw Nen Lin. Haha she was unsure about whether I am the Swee King she knows. Well, she was in nice dressing, probably just finsihed her performance. We just smile at each other and that's all.

Then when I turn my sight out of her, I saw Shih Xuan and ofcourse she saw me too. We waved at each other and she asked me why am I not in singapore?! Well, everyone asked the same thing today.

So I continue walking, and when I reached foyer block A, Andrew shouted my name. I was shocked to see him too, haha, lets pray that he is not chosen for NS.

All this hello and bye made me move as fast as a snail in my garden. Finally, I reached staff room 'safely'. Found my teacher, certified my certs. My job for today is done, finally.

Well, not to forget, met Ke Xin in the staff room, she shouted Phang Swee King! again, as usual, with my surname in it.

Here I go out from the upstair-staff-room. I saw Inn was walking away using the prefect bridge. I was so attracted by her that I walk through the bridge and say Hi to her. Then only I noticed, I m moving in the opposite direction from where I suppose to go. Guess she is just like a magnet and I am the iron, rusted one. She attracted me.

Okay, I am back to the lower stair's staff room. Again, I saw my friends there. Xiao Wei from Taekwondo and also the 2 little cute girls from Mathematics, Alicia and Vivien. Well, vivien not really from Mathematics Club but, I just linked her there. Chat quite a while with Alicia, while waiting for Yee Ling to appear. She seems to have forgotten to meet me there as we saw her talking happily in the PBSM room until we grabbed her out. Chat a while with her, and so they went away.

Met Zhong Wei my fellow Math student there, he said he is going Indon tomorrow, so we took some farewell pictures. Saw Kymmy walking pass there, she seems excited to see me too. Keep trying to grab my attention from other peoples. Hui Xian and Jing Mun passed by, stopped and chat a while. Traffic jam!

And finally, I saw Ern, or Lyn. Her name is Ern Lyn, sometime I called her Ern, sometime Lyn. Now I prefer Ern. The first sentense she said was, 'you want to die ar? never tell me you are back?'. Haha, felt kinda bad for not letting her know I am back earlier on. And she was so sweet as she sat beside me and quietly doing her stuff. Then, when bell rings, she wants me to accompany her to canteen for foods. Well ofcourse I am happy for accompanying, more like she is the one accompany me. After that, I met Khai Ling, Ee Ling and Xuann near the canteen. Xuann was kinda avoiding me, so nothing to talk about her. I am glad that the Ee Ling I know is back. She asked me how am I and where am I going. Well, kinda talked to them and negleting Ern. So she seems walking away from me and angried. So I immediately cut off my chatting with others and caught up her, and walked to the library with her. Well, Shi Yuan was there, crap a while with her, and then, since Ern is not free, I said bye to her, and I ran home.

Never thought that this trip will be so happy and fun, meeting back all my friends, especially Ern. Without her I would still be in a bad mood now I guess. She cheered up my day. Thanks Ern. =)

Me and Bel

As I promised, this is our pic during the last outing.

It was taken by Ern, that is why she is not there.

等待

偶然认识了她,
学会了等待.

等待着春天的来临;
等待着春风的温暖.

等待着荷花的开放;
等待着荷叶的芳香.

等待着妳说
我爱你.

Shape of My Heart

Shape of My Heart, the post of the blog.

The only corner of my Heart, you know who you are. =)

More Than Words

Currently feel so bored in the Matric fair. For those who don't know what is a Matric fair, its name is Matriculation Fair. Well, in Malay, Pengambilan Ahli Baru.

Noticed that I haven't been updating my blog recently, and since I am so bored now, I better do it right now.

Just decided that, I will come back to Malaysia again on next Sunday (12th August) due to some problem I am facing now. Well, it is actually a small matter where I cant certify my High School certificates here at NUS so I have to approach chs's teachers for the certifying on the Monday.

Troublesome. Will make myself as low-profile as I could. Don't really want to surprise anyone. =)

Well, has gone through another stage with her I guess. She is so far from me yet I always feel so close. She starts making me noticing that, we didn't need to miss each other, although we are 500km apart, as long as we know we are there for each other. Is that the power of faith and trusting?

Others will not understand this. They always think that they have to chat the most to their beloved one. They always think that they should miss each other even just a day of seperation. Well, for me it is totally different, we communicate with heart, with eyes, with actions. Words are just too much to speak.

The feeling is just great, it will take more than words to describe it.