妳 . 我

经过妳的班级
偷偷斜眼看进
妳专心在聆听

妳写妳的笔记
我却发梦游记
仿佛变成妳手中的铅笔

我看着妳
心想着妳
觉得就象接近自己

我爱着妳
心疼着妳
感觉就象爱着自己

我想妳的难题
妳顾虑我心情
比爱人还亲密

妳是我的秘密
我躲在妳心里
多么希望我是妳的唯一

我看着妳
心想着妳
觉得就象接近自己

我爱着妳
心疼着妳
难道爱妳更甚于爱自己？

Neej rof yllaiceps

Yad Gnitnioppasid A

Ain't today the day I looking forward the most?

Have you ever had this experient that the day you most looking forward to, the one you felt excited for it, was actually turned out to be a day you would wish you never had before?

Even the most optimistic man would turns pessimist.

Looked forward to the day, even thought some of my friends can't make it to the school, I was thought that it would be great as well as I could concentrate on her company. Well, it wasn't my day really. Searching for her up and down left and right inside and outside of the school, from round table to reading corner, turns to the hall and then to block D, from block D went to block E incase she's in her sister's classroom? Come back down and back to the reading corner, I shan't continue this, to know my whole journey, you just have to repeatedly reading this passage for 3 times.

So sure that she wasn't in the school anymore, I went out of school, to the place she always waited for her van, then to every single restaurant nearby, the Kanna Curry House, the Ipoh Chicken Rice, and, I don't know.

Well, glad to get her sister's sms that she has already home. Well it was disappointing but it was nothing compare to what happened after 2 hours.

She went back to school, mayb I was wearing an invisible suit, she just said hi and bye to me, then walked around at the side of the hall. Was thinking, was I really invisible to her? Does she knows that I was there just to meet her? I couldn't stop myself from thinking too much, I myself giving her excuses to tell myself that, her mum was near, can't talk to me. Well after another 20 minutes I waited, wait, I was really waiting. Sitting there looking at the path she took around the hall, praying that she would turns to me and at lease say a word, I cant really control my emotion anymore. I called her and I made her day bad, with my harsh words and violent reaction.

Really disappointed, not just to her, to myself as well as I couldn't couldn't couldn't control myself well. My mind wasn't with me and what I want was the explanation, what I want was whether am I really invisible to her. I couldn't felt anything besides pain, besides disappointment and hurts.

Finally I understand what's my other friend's PM means, it says that, the more effort you put in, when you fall, the more pain you will feel. And guess what, I fell today, a hard one.

The worse thing is, I can't let my parents know that I am sad. They would be even sad-ier than me if they know my feeling. Cried in my car on the way back, and forced a smile on my face, telling them I had a great day celebrating teacher's day today.

Having already promised her that I wouldn't be hot tempered anymore, would control myself well, but when I am sad, I forgotten everything.

Really feel bad for her now.

Sorry for today.
But I was really, sad.

Well, and so the supposingly-happy day ended. The sad way.

Warning: High Definition Pictures.

When you first look at this picture, what do you think it is?

No, you didn't get it right. This is actually the close up look at the back of a single playing card, a card from the famous card company in the world, the USPCP(The US Playing Card Company).

Why do I talk about playing cards all of sudden? To all of you, maybe you don't know my 'hidden' hobby yet, and let me introduce my unique and probably biggest hobby of me:

Playing Cards Collection

Well a lot of you might wonder why do I like to collect cards? This lead to another 'hidden' character of me. Don't be shocked when you read this. I was a magician at before I start to collect cards about 7 years ago. Don't fall down from your chair, I was just an amature close-up magician. Being a magician was just my hobby, nothing related to my future job. I have attended the close-up magic course in the International Magic Academy located in SS2 seven or eight years ago, couldn't remember the date well.

Even though my magic impressed almost everyone, it doesn't seems to impress me, myself. However, there was something in the magic course did grab my attention. It was my first high quality playing card I obtained in the same magic course. No, there is nothing wrong with the card, it is a real playing card you could find it everywhere, not in Malaysia, but in the United State. No trick on the card, as I said, it is just a normal deck of card.

So how this deck of cards impressed me? It is just totally different from the playing cards you could easily obtained from shopping mall. It is made by the USPCP and is just so much smoother than all the other cards I have ever touched. When I first hold the cards in my hand, it fell off my hand immediately due to its smooth surface. Slowly I have got used to the smooth surface of the cards and I could well handling it like my own fingers during the card tricks.

Lets not talk about the card tricks but the cards. Since then, I did some research on the USPCP on the products they have and how they produced the smooth surface of the cards. From the information I found, the surface of the cards are coated with a layer of tiny air bubble. How does the air bubble manage to stay on the surface? This I am not sure. I think it has something very thin wrapped on it and stick to the surface of the cards.

The USPCP came out with different brands of playing card. Some of it which I have them in my collections are Bee, Aviator and Aladdin-the same brand as my first playing card obtained from the magic academic. And ofcourse, the best selling card in the world, The Bicycle Card, which is shown in the picture above, which I have collected almost 20 decks of different styles and sizes of it thoughtout these years.

Well, thinking about cards makes me feel like showing you what I have. However, currently I only manage to collect a pair of Aladdin Cards here in Singapore and the rest of my collectables are sleeping at home back in Malaysia. So let me show you how beautiful they are (and also how's my photographing skills =p ).

Have you ever seen a guarentee card before?

The US Playing Card Company

Ace of Spade, the most beautiful card of the deck

Read what it is written there

Read again? =p

my fanning skill remain, after so long

Close up view

Focus on the Ace please(not you, is the camera)

Finally it shows what I want

Haha, My single-hand-fan(ooi I didn't arrange it okay? I could fan this out in 1 second)

Still not enough of it?

Couldn't get myself off this. It's too nice =D

Look closer

When the Aces meet each other

He shows his class

And she shows her beauty

The story of Aces

Red vs Blue

Focus! Focus please camera!

A calendar card?

30th July, My birthday

It's over

The boxes

Made in USA

K for King =)

J for Jeen =D

p/s: Couldn't find R for Ru >.<
pp/s: What am I doing here at 4am? I have an exam tomorrow!
ppp/s: Please go and sleep, King.

Food for Thought

Nothing to do in my room, playing with the food I've just bought.

Wall of Berlin

Tear here if you can

Defence Tower, from the bottom

From the top

Castle of biscuits

Guess this is enough for me to survive 2 more weeks here. =D

Major

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?

You scored as Mathematics/Statistics

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Mathematics, Statistics, or related majors (e.g., Accounting, Actuarial Science, Astronomy, Computer Engineering, Computer Information Systems (CIS), Computer Science, Economics, Engineering, Finance, Management Information Systems (MIS), Operations Management, Physics, Risk Management).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests.

Mathematics/Statistics		100%
Physics/Engineering/Computer		100%
Education/Counseling		94%
Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health		75%
French/Spanish/OtherLanguage		69%
HR/BusinessManagement		69%
Accounting/Finance/Marketing		63%
English/Journalism/Comm		56%
Biology/Chemistry/Geology		56%
History/Anthropology/LiberalArts		50%
Visual&PerformingArts		50%
Psychology/Sociology		44%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy		38%
Religion/Theology		31%

Hmm

What else could you expect from me besides this?

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Science/Math Nerd (Absolute Insane Laughter as you pour toxic chemicals into a foaming tub of death!) Well, maybe you aren't this extreme, but you're in league with the crazy scientists/mathmeticians of today. Very few people have the talent of math and science is something takes a lot of brains as well. Thank whosever God you worship, or don't worship, so thank no deity whatsoever in your case, for you people! Most of us would have died off without your help.
Literature Nerd
Social Nerd
Drama Nerd
Gamer/Computer Nerd
Musician
Artistic Nerd
Anime Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quizzes for MySpace

Appreciation

This has little related to the topic with the same title in my dearest mui-Jeen's blog. It is just so coincident that I have some thought about this topic.

Yes she is right. In every single little thing in our life, we should appreciate them. The best example I could give you is, well, Mathematics again. Normally, people usually take Mathematics Formulae or Theorems for granted. They simply memories the formula derived by some great mathematicians few hundred years ago in order to score well in the exam. This is not a very good habit to practice I supposed. As I said, we shouldn't take it as a gift. What I think would be the best to do is, to look into the derivation of the formula and try to get new insight from there. I bet after you've understand how the formula comes from, you probably will admire the one who created it, the one who was able to come out with such great imagination in deriving the formula. You would appreciate Gauss, Newton, Euler, Archimedes, and many more, for their contribution to our lives.

Well said, The Mathematics has totally derailed my topic for today. So why do I suddenly thought of appreciation?

Everyone knows that, I love to teach. Everyone knows that, I love my friends as well. I love to talk to them, I love to be with them. I feel warm to be with them. Well, most of my friends, they are truely my friends. They talk to me whenever I am bored, they laugh at my jokes. The most important one, they remember me, all the time.

However, you can't guarentee that all your friends will be a true friend. There are certain people, who I do willing to help them whenever they need help, has different kind of attitude that I can't really accept-they only find me when they need my help. Examples? Didn't even message me or talk to me normally, but during exam periods, talking so sweet to me, giving all kind of excuses of why they didn't talk to me much normally, just to make sure I agree to be their tutor. And the worse thing is, when they have already planned a meeting with me so that I could teach them, but suddenly if they don't feel like studying, they just disappeared and didn't inform me at all. Only when I ask them about it, they will only 'thought' of me and say "sorry, will meet you some other time, can?".

Maybe you would think that this is not a big deal, but I just don't feel good for being their friend only when they need me. I don't like to be taken for granted although I wouldn't turn anyone down when someone ask me for help. Well, normally I would really show them that I am unhappy about it. But since it is still in my own creating Charity Month* now, I am trying to tolerate with them, still showing them that I am alright and okay with it, trying my best to make them as comfortable as I could, like nothing had happened.

But you know, I just simply can't allow myself to be used again.





p/s: *if you want to know what my Charity Month is about, ask me directly in MSN, I can't say it here. =)

pp/s: dun worry, you are my true friend. Those I mentioned in this post, will not visit my blog anyway.

29

No, this is not my blog entry's number; nor it is not Beckham or Micheal Jordan's shirt number(they were 23!); today is not the 29th day of the month, so what would you think I can write about the number 29? Clue: No mathematics here today.

For those who are close to me, for those who has been keeping track of my Personal Message, you would read my mind correctly this time. Yes, my 29th tooth is growing, finally.

If you are not sure about how many teeth a normal person has, take a mirror and start counting your own's.

So what is this 29th tooth? It is called wisdom tooth. A 'normal' adult will have 4 wisdom teeth. They normally appear when you are between 16 to 24 years old. Well a quite detail information about wisdom teeth has already posted by my dearest mui-Jeen in her blog. I will talk about some other interesting facts about it here then.

Ever wonder how the word 'wisdom tooth' comes from? There are a few etymologies about it. In general, it is named 'wisdom' because it appears so late than the other teeth, at the age where people are wiser than a child. However, according to a Dutch folk etymology, wisdom tooth is called verstandskies in Dutch word and it is derived from "far-standing" (ver-stand) molar. Due to translation error, the Dutch word ver-stand is mistranslated to wisdom in English because they sound alike.

In some other country, wisdom tooth has his own unique name.

Turkish - 20 yaş dişi (20th year tooth)

Arabic - Ders-al-a'qel (the tooth of the mind)

Korean - Sa-rang-nee (love tooth)

Japanese - Oyashirazu (unknown to the parents)

Thai - fan-khut (huddling tooth)

Guess my 1st wisdom tooth is still a baby now as I can't feel any pain like what other people has described. Since this is my first wisdom tooth after a long wait (I am 22 now!), I was so excited that I have done a 'survey' with a few close friends of mine on the number of teeth they've got. Here's the results!

Jeen - 27

Reason: 4 teeth were removed for braces due to the lack of space in her tiny mouth. Sadly, once she has removed the teeth, 3 wisdom teeth pop up and replace the 'empty' space in the same time. So total 27.

Shien - 27

Reason: No teeth were removed. But why only 27? Only 27 teeth were born in her mouth, guess it is about genetic. Her dad's too!

Kay - 28

Reason: Perfect teeth (Ofcourse, she is a model. She simply can't has a tooth more or less) =p


Welcome to the world, my dear 29th tooth. Hope you wouldn't cost me too much of pain later. Off I go. =)

Tolerance

There was a bridge made from a single tree trunk connecting the North and the South.

Once apon a time, there was a black sheep, travelling from the North to the South. In the same time, there was a white one travelling in the opposite direction. Incidently, they met on the trunk, the middle of the bridge. Having knowing nothing about tolerance, they expect each other to give his way. And so, the story is never ending, as they don't tolerate.

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Living through this tiny world for more than 2 decades, the black sheep still doesn't know how to tolerate. Ashame to say that, the black sheep can't even spell this word 'tolerance' correctly. Without understanding tolerance, the black sheep becomes arrogant, and egotistic. His arrogance freaks his friends, his egotistic turns everyone down. Those who care about him, they were upset by him. Those who don't care about him, they simply didn't care.

So, what's so good to be arrogant? What's so good to be igotistic? You simply have just hurt your carers, and did nothing to those who are not.

It will do nothing good.

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The black sheep will understand this one day. He will must learn about tolerance. He will appreciate everything about his friends.

And he will not freak his dearest mui-Jeen, anymore. He promised.

Me

Cycle

My life is like a loop



It keeps me going the same way



It makes me face the same old problems



Yet I still can't solve it






Wake up, King.





Time to make a move



A clever one



That would be the biggest breakthrough of my life.